Beautifully Human

Categories: death, friends, makin moves, music

Yo… I’m sitting here listening to a preview of Jill’s new album… and I’m INSTANTLY in love with it. She hasn’t lost her touch at all. And so perfectly embodies so many thoughts and feelings so effortlessly. She does it with the savvy of a mother where as Maxwell does it with the stupor of … Read More

Deuil

Categories: death, love & marriage, media, reminiscing, romance

This weekend started for me on Friday. I woke up and my eye was acting conjunctivitis-ish. But it calmed down for the day and I was at work. Learning much at the hands of Mr. K.Deeezay. He’s really so very smart. I wonder if I’m going to learn everything I need to before he breaks … Read More

Endings

Categories: bad day, death, recovering

This may be my last post to the old server. I set the domain to move tonight, so tomorrow morning… Fresh beginnings! I had a good cry tonight. I guess it was just sitting on my chest for a little while. I was watching the season premiere of “Six Feet Under”, (morbidly…I am a fan … Read More

Memorial Weekend

Categories: death, excursions, love & marriage

It was pretty quiet this weekend. Much needed and deserved relaxation took place. Friday night was peaceful and I slept late, which was glorious. Then Saturday I spent the majority of the day out and about with the Mr. We got him the new phone that he’s been needing forever and we wandered around Union … Read More

Terminal

Categories: death, family, figuring it out

Usually on my way in to the office I pull out my palm pilot to play video games to numb my mind on the commute. But today my mind is sufficiently occupied. As I sluggishly moved around this morning to get ready (armed with the thoughts that i didn’t need to rush because my boss … Read More

If I should…

Categories: death, fear, why am i doing this again?

If I should…. So I was in my first car accident today. It was pretty scary. DB and I were driving and the traffic in front of us came to a dead halt. With her usual driving acumen, she stopped with enough room not to have hit the person in front of us… but the … Read More

Running

Categories: change, death, random musings, work crap

Running I’m running from stuff. I had a meeting today with a Soror… but it’s all the way out in queens – so I called and cancelled. I should have been in the gym today… but I’m sitting here at work. Although I feel quite good about life right now. I had a good convo … Read More

Ride Off Into the Sunset

Categories: death, figuring it out, numb

My brother and I had dinner tonight and he went over the idea of one of my favorite characters of Sex & The City dying from breast cancer. I had never considered it… Because I assumed that there would be a happy ending. But he rationalized “Do you see her growing old and raising grandkids? … Read More

Uncle Rene

Categories: death

My uncle died tonight. He had been lingering. Cancer coated all the organs in his body… he was being kept alive by a respirator / life support machine. He recently caught pneumonia that caused total renal failure… and that’s what did him in finally. He’s been in this limbo for some months now. But I … Read More