Used to be that I dreaded the return to workday. Whether it was the Monday after a regular weekend or the Tuesday after a long one. The day before, right around 5PM or so, I’d…
Browsing Category bad day
A wish to be missed
It’s been a running theme in my world. Rephrasing the reciprocity trope. I sent a message to someone at work last night right before going to sleep and then for whatever reason agonized about how…
Perceived Value.
This reciprocity thing… Really takes me for a loop on a regular. Perception is king. So maybe what I think, feel, say… how I hold others in whatever regard… might be my reality. Maybe I’m…
I’m failing this test…
Three years now. I’ve been stuck. Officially stuck. Since June 1, 2017. Everything in me wanted to see this appointment as being a hail mary. An answered prayer. God taking my whole situation into consideration…
Breathe in the Decay
So, for me… something smells. Always. My sense of smell has been the gift and the curse for me all my life. I’ve always joked growing up in Queens that I could smell a fire…
Just Say It Out Loud…
In Kanye’s latest “Ye”, the first song is called “I Thought About Killing You”. In one line he said “Just say it out loud to see how it feels. People say ‘Don’t say this. Don’t…
Getaway
Frankly? What a shit day. Thank God for mini getaways. Mental and otherwise. Bone tired. Will do more this weekend. AWF tomorrow! YES LAWD! Avery Sunshine “Sweet Afternoon” *
My Flowers
I had an experience about 3 weeks ago where one night I felt a twinge of pain in the center of my left breast. I thought it was because perhaps I had pulled or strained…
Rotting on the Vine
I’m not sure what I did. Or maybe I do. I don’t want to consider it all to be punishment. Maybe I’m being taught a lesson. But personally and professionally, I am rotting on the…
Loving you is complicated…
It’s been quiet in my world. This is something I’m getting used to. If I’m not being bombarded on texts or emails full of things people want from me…. well… it’s quiet. It’s bothering me…