Do Over

Categories: dreams

Crazy dream last night.  I was working in a place that was constructed as a hybrid between Vanguarde and the digital department at Emmis circa 2015. My co workers were Angela Yee and Charlamagne tha God from the Power 105.1 breakfast club and instead of DJ Envy, the third member of the group was Pharrell … Read More

Cupellation: Thoughts on Becoming Silver – a series. #1

Categories: my history, silverstaraka, sorority stuffs

Cupellation is a refining process in metallurgy, where ores or alloyed metals are treated under very high temperatures and have controlled operations to separate noble metals, like gold and silver, from base metals like lead, copper, zinc, arsenic, antimony or bismuth, present in the ore. The process is based on the principle that precious metals … Read More

Talkin’ Teams

Categories: check in

There were whole factions of people that I used to hang my life on.   I’d speak to them daily.  Never a week would go by where I wouldn’t reach out to them.   They were active, turning cogs in the machine of my life. Few decisions were made without consultation with them and free time was … Read More

“You’ll Be Back.”

Categories: check in

Some advice you never forget.   Even moreso if the quality of the person giving is extraordinary. I love my chapter.  I’m grateful to have found it and be a part of it since 2001.   Early on I noticed a constantly moving earth beneath my feet when it came to being a longstanding member of a … Read More

Never My Love

Categories: music

Only him. Only his music can do this to me. Stop me dead in my tracks and MAKE me listen. Then dissolve me in to a little puddle of tears.  ON SIGHT. Because he reaches right into my soul and says to me what I’ve been dying to hear. Even if there’s no one in … Read More

First Person

Categories: check in

She came in to the radio station once to sing this for us live, no accompaniment.   We all knew in that instant that she would be a star.  The SHEER emotion she exuded.  If you’d ever been in any similar situation you were sitting there fighting tears.  We always imagine the song from the singer’s … Read More

Pete Fiel Mwen

Categories: check in

Pronunciation – pay-tay fyelle mouenh Growing up it was a term I heard a LOT from my elders.  Usually in relation to something they couldn’t take anymore of.  Something so overwhelming that they felt that their brains would blow out of their heads.   The direct translation speaks exactly to that.  A feeling so overpowering that … Read More

Do it Anyway. Do it Now.

Categories: dreams, fear, growing, reminiscing

After a particularly rough weekend – emotionally… and after much consternation, I finally fell asleep tonight about 2 hours ago.  During which I dreamt.    It’s been a while since I did.   And even longer since she visited. We were back home in Queens.  The house was alight.  Buzzing with a sense of celebration.  There … Read More

If it’s ever real again

Categories: love & marriage

one day. this is what I’ll play. this is the sound of being IN love and really loving: Marvin Gaye & Tammi Terrell – Ain’t No Mountain High Enough   *