Little Woman

Categories: celebrations, family, growing, health, mommy in training

Well.  It happened.   My sweet little baby girl’s body has crossed the threshold into womanhood. She got the signs of her first cycle on November 18th.  At first, she didn’t tell me anything about it.  She said she thought it was some weirdness that would pass and she washed out her panties and tried to … Read More

Worthiness Accounting

Categories: aspirations, esteem, really? nothing, thinking too much

I would have hoped that at this point in life, I would have eased up on this algebra. My birthday is in a few weeks.   Luckily, thanks to my Sands Ronnie, I’m taking a week to head out to Vegas and just… be.  And I’m looking forward to it.  A gift to myself. A gift … Read More

One thing…

Categories: dreams, esteem, future gazing, good day, growing

I caught myself grinning today.  Just because.  Not that big of a deal, right?  But it was something that was so impossible for me to fathom doing just 5 months ago.  I was trapped in an 8-year spiral of what felt like perpetual retrograde. Deeply unhappy with where it looked like life was going personally, … Read More

Smiling.

Categories: catching up, check in, good day, good times

That’s it.   That’s the post. I sit here from time to time and catch myself…. smiling. I want to spend as much time and effort extolling this place where I’ve arrived as I spent lamenting not being here.  One where my soul is not in a vice grip.  Where I don’t feel put upon every … Read More

Rebirth

Categories: check in

On September 9, 2021 I blogged : I really look forward to being able to look back at this time and have that “a-ha” moment where I’m like… SEEE???  NOW it makes sense. I can’t say that it’s definitely ALL making sense… but I think I can verify now that the light at the end … Read More

The Number You Have Reached…

Categories: death, makin moves, media, my history, news and politic

I have always been a radio girl. I may not have always studied each and every song as hard as others: knowing the producers and writers and performers of every single song; knowing when they were released and if they were reprises; knowing the origin of every breakbeat and every sample.  But my radio was … Read More

Does anyone get saved?

Categories: bad day, caretaker

My daughter asked me if I’ll be updated ThoughtsDaughter.   I told her I would.  I wondered why she asked.   Maybe she’s been reading.  All good either way. Here’s me sticking to my promise. I was holding it together for the last… 48 hours  and the thought crossed my mind… Does anyone get saved? Will anyone … Read More

Nope.

Categories: check in

not even going to stay up till midnight on this one.   *

Priority: 0 / Solar Flares

Categories: check in

It’s interesting to realize the day when you are no longer anyone’s priority. Hopefully, in life, there is a span of time where someone holds you in the kind of regard where you are paramount in their thoughts and actions. That your well-being and mental health are considered before they move forward. Maybe a mom, … Read More

Dread. Every day.

Categories: bad day, catching up, stroke

Used to be that I dreaded the return to workday.   Whether it was the Monday after a regular weekend or the Tuesday after a long one.   The day before, right around 5PM or so, I’d get this cloud hanging over me, reminding me that the respite was over.  It was time to lend my full … Read More