Dread. Every day.

Used to be that I dreaded the return to workday.   Whether it was the Monday after a regular weekend or the Tuesday after a long one.   The day before, right around 5PM or so, I’d…

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IDK

A tough couple of days.  Weeks… Months… So – since our “vacation” to Mexico – I’ve been in a serious slump.  Like seriously depressed.   The vacation was supposed to be a reprieve from the everyday…

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Not ok.

Told the future I was ready.   Universe told me to sit my ass down. This is it.   Must start blogging more – I think this has been THE most sparse year.  I’m withdrawing….

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Please, love me. Please, want me.

It doesn’t make sense to beg for these things. If someone doesn’t want to… If they aren’t naturally inclined to…. or inspired to… what’s the sense of begging for it… bribing them… cajoling or convincing?…

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46

Strange year, 2020. Grateful to have had a long pause.   Hate the reason why. Happy to have spent so much up close and personal time with my beautiful budding baby girl. Happy to have dedicated…

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It DOES Hurt…

This afternoon I became aware of a meeting that popped up on my agenda.   That’s not unusual.  People throw things on each other’s calendars at this company like it’s a dartboard competition.  But this one…

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Misinterpreting the Universe

Got the urge to watch my favorite scene from West Side Story last night… the one where two star crossed lovers notice each other across the room and float to one another.  The world fades…

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A wish to be missed

It’s been a running theme in my world.   Rephrasing the reciprocity trope. I sent a message to someone at work last night right before going to sleep and then for whatever reason agonized about how…

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