That’s it. That’s the post. I sit here from time to time and catch myself…. smiling. I want to spend as much time and effort extolling this place where I’ve arrived as I spent lamenting not being here. One where my soul is not in a vice grip. Where I don’t feel put upon every … Read More
On September 9, 2021 I blogged : I really look forward to being able to look back at this time and have that “a-ha” moment where I’m like… SEEE??? NOW it makes sense. I can’t say that it’s definitely ALL making sense… but I think I can verify now that the light at the end … Read More
not even going to stay up till midnight on this one. *
It’s interesting to realize the day when you are no longer anyone’s priority. Hopefully, in life, there is a span of time where someone holds you in the kind of regard where you are paramount in their thoughts and actions. That your well-being and mental health are considered before they move forward. Maybe a mom, … Read More
A tough couple of days. Weeks… Months… So – since our “vacation” to Mexico – I’ve been in a serious slump. Like seriously depressed. The vacation was supposed to be a reprieve from the everyday that was already dragging me down. Our trip was supposed to rejuvenate me and give me the energy that I … Read More
Told the future I was ready. Universe told me to sit my ass down. This is it. Must start blogging more – I think this has been THE most sparse year. I’m withdrawing. Mom would be proud. *
It doesn’t make sense to beg for these things. If someone doesn’t want to… If they aren’t naturally inclined to…. or inspired to… what’s the sense of begging for it… bribing them… cajoling or convincing? That’s just more proof in the pudding that they don’t want it THAT bad. Friends, lovers, jobs, whatever. It. Is. … Read More
Got the urge to watch my favorite scene from West Side Story last night… the one where two star crossed lovers notice each other across the room and float to one another. The world fades in the distance, mere water colored shadows drifting by while these two confirm what they knew…. this moment was unlike … Read More
I’m a normally twitchy person. When I hear loud thuds in the house (any house I live in) I react like a first responder. I hop up and investigate. Did something fall? Did something fall ON someone? Did SOMEONE fall? Are they okay? Any bruises, bumps, cuts, concussions? Behaving this way often has me yelling … Read More
I want to embrace this energy. I know that change is hard and scary and daunting and necessary. Never has it really ever been fun (the process of change). But it can lead to fun… innovation… newness… a fresh take. In the process though, things suck. I’ve not had an appetite as of late but … Read More