Lord…

Categories: fear

Make me an instrument of your Peace! Where there is hatred, let me sow love. Where there is injury, pardon. Where there is discord, harmony. Where there is doubt, faith. Where there is despair, hope. Where there is darkness, light. Where there is sorrow, joy. Oh Divine Master, grant that I may not so much … Read More

Euthanasia

Categories: fear, figuring it out, future gazing

I wanted to put these thoughts down before I actually go about a busy day. They’ve been roaming around in my head for a little while now. I want it to be known here, in case I don’t get the chance to update my Health Care Proxy or fill out my living will. If something … Read More

Wounded

Categories: fear, figuring it out, love & marriage, recovering

I’m beginning to think that when I’m in a state of ruin or hurt, I really don’t see anything else around me too clearly. That somehow, I end up alienating or picking fights with the folks around me. That would be one hell of an admission to make, being that I’m outing myself as having … Read More

Resisting Mutation

Categories: esteem, family, fear, figuring it out

Strangely enough in my recent status, I’m in my seriously anti-marriage / anti-married people state. Married folks confuse me. I was saying to Blink today that I don’t have one couple that I can seriously call my exemplary couple. Everyone that was exemplary to me at once ended up separating or I found out they … Read More

Aurally Fixated

Categories: bad day, esteem, fear, figuring it out, what in the entire hayle

“Misfortune comes from one’s mouth and ruins him, but fortune comes from one’s mind and makes him worthy of respect.” – Bhuddist Saying I remember learning in psychology class in High School that there is a stage in growth and development as an infant when you experience the world through your mouth. Everything new goes … Read More

Changes

Categories: catching up, family, fear, figuring it out, mommy stories

So I’ve ordered new hosting for my blog… I hated the host I was on before and have come to the decision that I don’t want to get dicked in the ass anymore if I haven’t asked for it. And this is one of those situations where I was like “I’d like to pay for … Read More

Don’t Come Back.

Categories: bad day, fear, figuring it out

I kind of went through today in a daze. I didn’t really take account of anything or remember much from my train ride. Outside of the complete lack of consciousness I experienced on the train just playing with my palmpilot. When the train pulled into Times Square, I felt like I had woken up. This … Read More