Well, I popped awake this morning at about 8:00 and wondered why I couldn’t go back to sleep. I stared at the ceiling and this song kept circling in my head: K-dot did that for his son a while back. But I think it’s so beautiful. Like…makes you wanna rush out and have a kid…almost. … Read More
God always seems to send a child to comfort me. And that most of all is comforting. I was fresh off the boat from having done my job at the CD smooth cruise when I was sitting there with Shar. Maybe the liquor was getting to us and we decided that wallowing in our own … Read More
I found the comfort I was looking for. And I would have never expected it where it came from. I was at the office after my first workout at Curves and trying to finish up Satan’s work (otherwise known as coding the clips for the MB show). And at the doorway pops little KC and … Read More
I’m sitting here listening to Common and Lauryn Hill’s duet “Retrospect for Life”. So many feelings rush forward for me when I think about what they’re saying. On one hand, I’m so glad that my parents decided to have me. As much as I bitch about life and complain and worry and am afraid… I’m … Read More
So, what I expected to have happen today did. Just like I thought. My body kicked in and it’s business like usual. I’m so frustrated with it. And of course this month will be the most painful, most unruly … just to make it 10 times harder to deal with. It’s 8:19 AM and I’m … Read More
It’s been confirmed. My status. Two and you are… one and you’re not. And I got one. This was a no win situation for me mentally. Either way… i was going to find some horrid way of beating myself up for being me. Just my body’s way of pointing a finger at me and cackling … Read More
Tonight, my baby and I were talking about baby names. What we’d name our boy and our girl. I had suggested Christopher but he thought that was too plain. He suggested Elias… but I think that’s too… um… Jewish sounding. Nothing against the Jews. But we’d call him “Eli” for short. What we did agree … Read More
I constantly am reminded of how many people love me. I think it’s God’s way of making sure I don’t give up on myself. Last night at the Stepshow, before they were going to announce the winners, they pulled me up on stage and the whole audience sang Happy Birthday to me. Sorors, Zetas, Deltas, … Read More