Operation Clean Heart

Categories: esteem, figuring it out, good day, growing, worship

Today’s Soundtrack: Create In Me a Clean Heart – Donnie McClurkin I took a personal health (mental, that is) today and I just cleaned and cleaned and cleaned. And it’s amazing what that does. I didn’t sleep a wink last night. Tossing and turning about and swearing that something was in the room with me. … Read More

Questions from TLOB

Categories: figuring it out, growing, makin moves, why am i doing this again?

I’m answering questions from my TLOB Group here… Part A: Who am I? [Choose five words that honestly and accurately describe who you are now. Choose five words that describe who you want to be.] Who I am now: Creative, Empathetic, Self-Defeating, Enthusiastic, Worrysome Who I want to be: Peaceful, Contented, Debt-Free, Hopeful, Motherly Part … Read More

Quest for Meaning

Categories: esteem, figuring it out, growing

My quest for meaning I had dinner with AZ today. It was definitely an eye opener. We sat and talked about the events from my birthday and everything that has happened (or not) since. We talked about relationships and settling and folks finding their soulmates and being ready for their soul mates and living happily … Read More

Everything Must Change….

Categories: change, figuring it out, growing

That’s today’s soundtrack. Listen to it here if you’d like while you read: That’s just generally true for all things going on in my life right now. My way of thinking must change… my way of acting must change. My life has to change. I just hope it’s for the best. I realized that the … Read More

People love me

Categories: esteem, figuring it out, growing, mommy in training

I constantly am reminded of how many people love me. I think it’s God’s way of making sure I don’t give up on myself. Last night at the Stepshow, before they were going to announce the winners, they pulled me up on stage and the whole audience sang Happy Birthday to me. Sorors, Zetas, Deltas, … Read More

Archived Links Fixed

Categories: figuring it out, growing, work crap

YAAAY! They fixed my archived links!!! Today has been a blah kind of day. But the highlights so far were me finding out that they fixed my archived links on blogger and when KISS played “Wanna Be Startin Somethin” on the ride home. I was JAMMIN!!!! that’s my song! Mamma say mamma sa ma ma … Read More

Outgrow

Categories: growing, mommy stories, why am i doing this again?

Today was pretty blah. I had a restless nights sleep. Last night I cut a “friend” off. I use that loosely. He wasn’t much of a friend. More like… someone I gave and gave and gave to… and he took and took and took… and expected more. Which was a perfectly fine model of friendship … Read More