2020 has been quite the year thus far. Standing on the brink of May and we’ve been through a lot. I was on medical leave for 6 weeks. About week 2 of that leave, a worldwide pandemic of coronavirus (COVID-19) started to sweep across and sicken droves of people. This called for a worldwide quarantine- … Read More
Growing up in NYC is an adventure. Growing up during the 90s / early Millennia even more so. I’m partial. That was my “coming of age”. Fresh out of college… experiencing the “real world” – mine only has quotations around it because I lived at home for a solid decade more, not stacking chips but … Read More
I have a vivid memory. Just before I stopped dating anymore, I dated one last person. I invested a lot into him which is strange because I wasn’t really attracted to him at first. But then he expressed an interest in me and you all know that is the secret formula for me. If you … Read More
What I felt (and still feel) in my SOUL: You know… the one God put there? (not counting collaborations on other albums) The New Workout Plan Jesus Walks Two Words Heard ‘Em Say Drive Slow Addiction Hey Mama (I ALWAYS shed an instant tear) I Wonder Flashing Lights Everything I Am Say You Will (you … Read More
Two little mice fell in a bucket of cream. The first mouse quickly gave up and drowned. The second mouse, wouldn’t quit. He struggled so hard that eventually he churned that cream into butter and crawled out. -Frank Abagnale, Sr. – Catch Me If You Can Two years ago, I was in a peculiar situation. One that I’d never been during … Read More
We walked along a boardwalk that was headed to a beach. (not running alongside the shoreline but the water was the destination). Along the way there were several carnival-like places to go into – gaming places, music club, bars, etc. I noticed that she was all at once my mother and my daughter. But I … Read More
It was all an elaborate illusion. Of my own making. I realize now. It’s amazing what your mind forces you to hear and see. So I’m clear that I owe him an apology. He’s been telling me very clearly for a long time that he wanted me to leave. I just chose not to hear … Read More
This post is an assignment from my therapist. She asked me to take a few moments to sit and think about what I want. The ask is lofty. I want so much. But I’ll attempt a bullet point the things that matter the most. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin I want … Read More
“I tried to change.Closed my mouth more, tried to be softer, prettier, less awake.Fasted for 60 days, wore white, abstained from mirrors, abstained from sex, slowly did not speak another word.” – Warsan Shire I’ve been looking for something. A sign. Some direction. A treasure map. Invisible ink. Writings on walls. I’ve been playing … Read More
A disturbing dream last night. I was living in a housing arrangement where I was a house slave. The overseer was my dad do he didn’t make me do much in the way of work because he spoiled me and doted on me. But he was strict with the other slaves and treated them as … Read More