Strange year, 2020. Grateful to have had a long pause. Hate the reason why. Happy to have spent so much up close and personal time with my beautiful budding baby girl. Happy to have dedicated time to starting my own venture – even if I’m still not 1000% clear on the direction. Happy to have … Read More
This afternoon I became aware of a meeting that popped up on my agenda. That’s not unusual. People throw things on each other’s calendars at this company like it’s a dartboard competition. But this one seemed eerily important. Firstly, it was being convened by the parent company (not just my brand). Secondly, there was something … Read More
Got the urge to watch my favorite scene from West Side Story last night… the one where two star crossed lovers notice each other across the room and float to one another. The world fades in the distance, mere water colored shadows drifting by while these two confirm what they knew…. this moment was unlike … Read More
It’s been a running theme in my world. Rephrasing the reciprocity trope. I sent a message to someone at work last night right before going to sleep and then for whatever reason agonized about how I would hypothetically reply to their possible replies. ALL. NIGHT. Like… literally spent all night crafting the response in a … Read More
I’m a normally twitchy person. When I hear loud thuds in the house (any house I live in) I react like a first responder. I hop up and investigate. Did something fall? Did something fall ON someone? Did SOMEONE fall? Are they okay? Any bruises, bumps, cuts, concussions? Behaving this way often has me yelling … Read More
This reciprocity thing… Really takes me for a loop on a regular. Perception is king. So maybe what I think, feel, say… how I hold others in whatever regard… might be my reality. Maybe I’m lending to the narrative that I’m just a bit character in the greater scheme of their lives. That I should … Read More
I want to embrace this energy. I know that change is hard and scary and daunting and necessary. Never has it really ever been fun (the process of change). But it can lead to fun… innovation… newness… a fresh take. In the process though, things suck. I’ve not had an appetite as of late but … Read More
Three years now. I’ve been stuck. Officially stuck. Since June 1, 2017. Everything in me wanted to see this appointment as being a hail mary. An answered prayer. God taking my whole situation into consideration and believing that I deserved this lifesaver. Surely I’d drown without it. Financially. Progressively with respect to my career. Emotionally. … Read More
Went to sleep to this: Woke up to this: And this has never rang more true to me…
.. is that being employed somewhere that makes you wish you’d have a stroke or a heart attack so that you wouldn’t have to go into the office or make you drink at least an entire bottle of some kind of liquor to numb that pain so you can cope…. is DEFINITELY a toxic situation. … Read More