Reciprocity

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I feel like in the many years of me blogging there have had to be at least 5 posts with this title. I struggle with this notion that whatever you put out to the world, to people should be reciprocated back to you somehow. If your intent is pore and heart is genuine then the … Read More

My friend is gone.

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2014 has been a year of me trying to figure it out on my own a lot.  Being stripped of a lot of mainstay friendships has been part of that.  This is one that I was NOT ready for. On my way to work one morning I see Darrius calling.  Well… I know 2 things … Read More

One Month LapBandiversary!

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Today makes 1 month since I had Peachez installed.  (It’s a working name… It may change) and I can’t say I have any regrets.  I’m down 25 lbs since then, have been working out pretty diligently ever since (despite my Achilles injury  ). The thing that has impressed me the most about my progress is that I feel absolutely … Read More

So… I CAN eat like pre-op… but I WON’T

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Life’s pace has definitely picked up with being back and work and all. The challenges of time have definitely been affecting me. Especially – time to eat right, time to make good decisions and time to log what’s been going on. I promised myself that I’d blog to keep up with my progress and empty … Read More

Fitbits, Cookouts and Auntie Visits (Days 8 & 9)

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Going good since the doctor’s visit.  I’ve decided to go the liquid protein route for at least a week before incorporating some soft foods.  So I have vats of this protein powder (Isagenix Australia) that I had been using at the beginning of last year that was really good.  Low carb, low fat, high protein and when I … Read More

Constant Conversation

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I’m having a neverending discussion with God.  I’m always talking to Him.  I always have been.  He doesn’t always feel the need to respond which is okay and I realize He’s terribly busy.   And I think it’s quite possible that I’ve lessened how often I talk now — well, because I’ve done that on … Read More

what about love

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i signed on to someone’s wedding website tonight.   the familiar tones of the damage control tape from the space shuttle Challenger played then B’s voice comes in You’re love is bright as ever Even in the shadows Oh baby kiss me…. Before they turn the lights out. Their pictures scrolled across the screen.  Carefully … Read More

more of the same

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quiet again tonight.  theens had a nap from 5-7 that had me putting her down at 10.  Just the worst use of my time.  But i don’t know how many times I can stress to my MIL that letting her nap late or not nap at all and crash early is just setting me up … Read More

it will end up badly

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just because that’s what on my heart right now.   it will not be the story book.   it will be a nightmare.  or it will be the stuff of tabloids.   this whole thing was a waste.  i hope i do better next time.

Yearn for Serenity

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Today is another day already.  On the dawn I can hear it…. the multiple requests of things people need from me.  Things people want from me.  But I just want silence.  Just a week or two.  True silence.  Waking up to nothing.  Not a to-do list.  Not an impending deadline.  No barrels hovering over head. … Read More