Categories: check in

I’m a normally twitchy person. When I hear loud thuds in the house (any house I live in) I react like a first responder.  I hop up and investigate.  Did something fall?  Did something fall ON someone?  Did SOMEONE fall?  Are they okay?  Any bruises, bumps, cuts, concussions?   Behaving this way often has me yelling … Read More

Perceived Value.

Categories: bad day, thinking too much

This reciprocity thing… Really takes me for a loop on a regular. Perception is king.  So maybe what I think, feel, say… how I hold others in whatever regard… might be my reality.   Maybe I’m lending to the narrative that I’m just a bit character in the greater scheme of their lives.  That I should … Read More

Hunker down

Categories: check in

I want to embrace this energy.  I know that change is hard and scary and daunting and necessary.  Never has it really ever been fun (the process of change).  But it can lead to fun… innovation… newness… a fresh take. In the process though, things suck.  I’ve not had an appetite as of late but … Read More

I’m failing this test…

Categories: bad day, work crap

Three years now. I’ve been stuck.  Officially stuck.  Since June 1, 2017. Everything in me wanted to see this appointment as being a hail mary.  An answered prayer.  God taking my whole situation into consideration and believing that I deserved this lifesaver.  Surely I’d drown without it. Financially. Progressively with respect to my career.  Emotionally. … Read More

What I know….

Categories: why am i doing this again?

.. is that being employed somewhere that makes you wish you’d have a stroke or a heart attack so that you wouldn’t have to go into the office or make you drink at least an entire bottle of some kind of liquor to numb that pain so you can cope…. is DEFINITELY a toxic situation. … Read More

Well… 2020…

Categories: catching up, figuring it out, what in the entire hayle

2020 has been quite the year thus far. Standing on the brink of May and we’ve been through a lot.  I was on medical leave for 6 weeks.  About week 2 of that leave, a worldwide pandemic of coronavirus (COVID-19) started to sweep across and sicken droves of people.  This called for a worldwide quarantine- … Read More

Thank you, B. Smith.

Categories: death, good times, my history, our history, reminiscing

Growing up in NYC is an adventure.   Growing up during the 90s / early Millennia even more so.  I’m partial.  That was my “coming of age”.  Fresh out of college… experiencing the “real world” – mine only has quotations around it because I lived at home for a solid decade more, not stacking chips but … Read More

Sold out on love

Categories: check in

I have a vivid memory. Just before I stopped dating anymore, I dated one last person.  I invested a lot into him which is strange because I wasn’t really attracted to him at first.  But then he expressed an interest in me and you all know that is the secret formula for me.  If you … Read More

Closed Every Day.

Categories: music

What I felt (and still feel) in my SOUL: You know… the one God put there? (not counting collaborations on other albums) The New Workout Plan Jesus Walks Two Words Heard ‘Em Say Drive Slow Addiction Hey Mama (I ALWAYS shed an instant tear) I Wonder Flashing Lights Everything I Am Say You Will (you … Read More