That’s it. That’s the post.
I sit here from time to time and catch myself…. smiling.
I want to spend as much time and effort extolling this place where I’ve arrived as I spent lamenting not being here. One where my soul is not in a vice grip. Where I don’t feel put upon every single second of every day. Where I feel like I have the bandwidth to tackle my issues individually because they haven’t all teamed up on me. Where Sunday nights don’t fill me with trepidation because – oh yeah: I LOVE where I work and who I work with. I do that stuff in my free time now because it doesn’t FEEL like work. It FEELS like alignment. Where seeing how far my husband has come in less than a year from a very frightening time in our lives still astounds me. Night and Day differences. Where my daughter cheered in acknowledgment of what a difficult year it’s been. But it’s OVER (her school year – but to her, that’s the end of our current trials).
It does feel like an emergence…
And I know it’s fleeting. But damnit if I don’t soak up every single solitary moment of this feeling. Breathe in all this rarified air…. fill my every molecule with this true sense of…
Today, I am Happy.