Thought's Daughter Rise, for the sunshine calls to thee…
14 lbs down. Eleventy thousand to go. LOL I keep getting back on the scale because I’m hesitant to believe that changing how i ate started this sloughing off of pounds. Admittedly, I stay wondering if I’m supposed to hate food now because everything that tasted phenomenal to me is off limits for the most ... Read More »
Mother’s Day 2013
May 13, 2013
This has been the best one yet since being a mom. I can only think they’re going to get increasingly better as Athena begins to understand more. This year we we went to a Mother’s Day Luncheon put on by a close colleague of mine that owns Two Fish and Five Loaves. He hosted us ... Read More »
“Victoria Heels”
May 9, 2013
Something that made me smile – because seriously? this all can’t be bad. For realz. My boss comes over to my desk when I was chatting with a co-worker of mine and he says to her… “Hey… weren’t you wearing some “Victoria Heels” earlier today?” (i suppose she changed into flats) So I say to ... Read More »
Everything Happens For a Reason
May 8, 2013
Just re-affirming. There’s a reason I’m on this particular path in life. It’s going to bring me somewhere great. I just have to trust that. Raining today. Matches my mood. Who knows what will happen? * Read More »
WEEK 3 – FBF
April 28, 2013
Nope. ain’t quit yet. Down 8.4 lbs so far and kicking it into high gear this week hopefully with the addition of gymtime. Not much to say right now. Besides this process making me think am I supposed to hate food now? Cause all the things I loved to indulge in are off limits. I ... Read More »
Day 6 & Day 7 – FBF
April 14, 2013
Day 6 was a doozy. No matter what I did – I was hungry. And it’s not like i could “do” much. I drank much water. Ate many veggies. Right through me. Like I did nothing at all. I had to pull the ole go-to-sleep-so-i-dont-feel-hungry trick from back in poverty days. I got ... Read More »
DAY 4 & DAY 5 – FBF
April 12, 2013
Day 4 was an interesting one. Really stuck to the plan but didn’t feel “hungry” all day. I wonder if my body is IN ketosis because I should be hungry. I ain’t eating shit. LOL But then again there is SOOOOOO much for the body to make use of in the mean time. Day 5 ... Read More »
Day 3 – FBF
April 10, 2013
Did okay today. Followed all the rules. Realized that all of the appeal of a burger to me is in the bun. So. Meh – who needs those. Not I. I think Luke James is this world’s version of my alternate reality’s doctor (read here). I think it’s why i dote so long on ... Read More »
Day 2 – FBF
April 9, 2013
Today … stayed on the wagon for the most part. Feeling really tired though – going to try to get a full night’s worth of sleep. Keeping my eye on the prize… remembering what can come of this if I do it right… * Read More »
DAY 1 – FBF
April 9, 2013
Always starting over. That’s okay – I appreciate the extra chances. Today was tough. Felt myself giving up in my head a few times. On a few things. But the overall benefit of staying the course is so rewarding that I just have to keep that in front of me. I can’t falter. ... Read More »
Teach Me How to Suffer
February 9, 2013
My earliest memory of it all… It was a saturday afternoon. Not sure what season of the year. But it was a weekend that Mommy had off. She had every other weekend off from the hospital. And they were usually the funner weekends because we got to be with her and I didn’t have ... Read More »
2013 – Year of Transformation
January 26, 2013
In December, I decided to start seeking out a cause of an issue and finally get it taken care of. While reviewing a few videos at work of some staff interactions which I was a part of, I really took notice of my eyes. Ever since I was younger, doctors have always been like “hey… ... Read More »
“ The Black slaves after receiving this indoctrination shall carry on and will become self-refueling and self-generating for HUNDREDS of years, maybe THOUSANDS ”
- The Willie Lynch Letter of 1712 -
Distant
January 18, 2013
Last week, Shawnnie’s mom passed away. He and I had been chatting more on Facebook and IM in the latter half of 2012 and she was battling breast cancer that had spread to her liver and bones. Her decline was rapid and so she wasn’t in pain for a very long time. And for that ... Read More »
Danbury
December 14, 2012
Today we learned of a brutal massacre that took place at an elementary school in Danbury Connecticut. Sandy Hills. A gunman who at the time of this writing was identified as Adam L killed his father at his home then traveled to the school where his mother was a teacher and proceeded to kill her ... Read More »
Reciprocity
November 16, 2012
It was just a regular Friday morning when it became the most extraordinary Friday of this life right here. After readying myself for the work day and heading down to the MIL’s apt to bid my cherub adieu for the day, we went through the regular routine. I chased her around the room with tickles ... Read More »
Vanishing
October 15, 2012
As she stepped out of the office building, the wind slapped rain droplets onto her bare legs reminding her of what effort she went through today just to be ignored. As she propped the manet on her umbrella open and swirled it into place over head, she inhaled deeply and thought to herself, “maybe this ... Read More »
Giving up is hard to do
October 4, 2012
This world and the way it works can really have you feeling like you Are crazy of trying to make sense of it. There are so many things in place to have you thinking that the path that feels right is wrong for you and the path that feels … Well… Less than awesome is ... Read More »
Wined and Dined
September 11, 2012
Could it be that it was all so simple then… Or has time re-written every line… -Barbara Striessand Tonight I looked off into the night before I left the office and saw the perfect sunset going down in the west while the starlit sky prompted the skyline to twinkle in kind. The weather lately has ... Read More »
The right kind of “old”
September 10, 2012
It’s a a standard in this world to want to grow old. A Ripe Old age. But I am not sure what kind of thought is put behind that wish. I am and always have been a proponent of speaking exactly what you want or you will get exactly what you speak. In terms of ... Read More »
If it were LIVE…
September 7, 2012
Being in the entertainment industry I have often wondered what the statement “LIVE in concert” has meant. They say it in TV and radio commercials. They emblazon it on printed digital items. And I have always said – what are the alternatives? via satellite? To track? Recorded in concert? Like folks would flock to MSG ... Read More »
The Nadler
August 29, 2012
I hate that I am writing this post but I think it’s necessary for me to put my soul at ease. Last Friday, I recieved the horrid news (via social networking no doubt) that my colleague from HOT, Chris Nadler died of a heart attack in front of his 2 young children. Reading the news ... Read More »