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My friend is gone.

My friend is gone.

2014 has been a year of me trying to figure it out on my own a lot.  Being stripped of a lot of mainstay friendships has been part of that.  This is one that I was NOT ready for. On my way to work one morning I see Darrius calling.  Well… I know 2 things ... Read More »

One Month LapBandiversary!

Today makes 1 month since I had Peachez installed.  (It’s a working name… It may change) and I can’t say I have any regrets.  I’m down 25 lbs since then, have been working out pretty diligently ever since (despite my achilles injury ). The thing that has impressed me the most about my progress is that I feel ... Read More »

So… I CAN eat like pre-op… but I WON’T…

So… I CAN eat like pre-op… but I WON’T…

Life’s pace has definitely picked up with being back and work and all. The challenges of time have definitely been affecting me. Especially – time to eat right, time to make good decisions and time to log what’s been going on. I promised myself that I’d blog to keep up with my progress and empty ... Read More »

Fitbits, Cookouts and Auntie Visits (Days 8 & 9)

Going good since the doctor’s visit.  I’ve decided to go the liquid protein route for at least a week before incorporating some soft foods.  So I have vats of this protein powder that I had been using at the beginning of last year that was really good.  Low carb, low fat, high protein and when I was using ... Read More »

“Wait… I thought you were a Sleeve Patient” (Days 6 & 7)

“Wait… I thought you were a Sleeve Patient” (Days 6 & 7)

Day 6 was the return to work.  Which was good and bad.  Good because I have an office that I can’t readily see everyone so when they’re chowing down out there I’m oblivious.  Bad because I work in entertainment and entertainment people are ALWAYS. EATING.   So there’s always yummy food just around the corner.  Of course on the day ... Read More »

The Gauntlet (Day 5)

The Gauntlet (Day 5)

What I’ve been reading on most of these boards is that Day 3 after the surgery is usually the worst.   The swelling begins to subside and your stomach starts to function as it did in terms of hunger.  But all you’re shoveling into it is clear liquid.   Well…  Day 3 managed to get by me.  I discovered clear ... Read More »

Don’t Fart… (Day 4)

Don’t Fart… (Day 4)

Well… I should have been paying closer attention to all the messages on the Bariatric Pal board that say “liquid in, liquid out”. I have nothing binding me and it should have made sense that air alone could not pass from within. And so out of laziness because I had found a comfortable spot on ... Read More »

Creative Ways of Bending

Creative Ways of Bending

So the one thing I’ve had to learn as I recover from surgery is that even though they tell you that you have to take it easy and not do A LOT of the things that you’re used to doing, there are some things you kind of have to figure out for yourself.  Like if you ... Read More »

4.0

Sitting here in the waiting room at the hospital.nbsp; Starving.nbsp; But it’s just so pronounced today. Probably because I realize that there won’t soon be that familiar safety net… that comfort waiting for me on the other side. This won’t be over and then I can go stuff my face later out drown my fears ... Read More »

The (Un)ceremonious Goodbye…

The (Un)ceremonious Goodbye…

Just like that… I’m days away from being nothing like I’ve been for 40 years.  A world of things have converged on a single point to make it so that I have to abandon all that I’ve done, been, believed in and pursued… all at once.   If I want to make it down the ... Read More »

The Real Reason I’ve Been Mad at Phyllis Hyman All These Years

The Real Reason I’ve Been Mad at Phyllis Hyman All These Years

Cause there’s a “real” reason… In January of 1994, I was attending a Black Students Leadership Conference in Williamsburg, Virginia.  It was a glittering assemblage of young black people from all over the world coming to share thoughts and be brilliant together.  I was honored to partake in that meeting of minds and excited at the ... Read More »

Glee

Glee

Strange dreams last night… After a SLAMMIN dinner cooked by the hubby, I sat back  in the couch prepared to relax when a sharp pain above and behind my left eye started me down a path of feeling sick for the night.   I said at that point I’d take Athena into her room and ... Read More »

Down on me

Down on me

I’ve been extremely silent lately.  And usually for me silence is coupled with sadness.  Usually because there’s enough silence for me to hear my own thoughts and that just depresses the hell out of me. I remember when Dr. Van Harte gave me my first exercise to do when she was counseling me in college. ... Read More »

Looking back at me

(in today’s culture, there’s about 12 different ways this title can be taken… I mean it in the most innocent of those ways.) I’m at the airport now getting ready for venture off to Florida and attend a conference for work. Up until last night, I was looking forward to it. I really wanted a ... Read More »

Quiet (Yeah, right).

Quiet (Yeah, right).

Well, it goes without saying much that I’ve been terrible at blogging this year.   There’s been so much going on… there always is.   But there isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t think that it is absolutely necessary to document it all.  I’ve got a million logs in my head.   ... Read More »

Forget me not.

Forget me not.

I am always reviewing my past.  My forward progress and missteps.  Things I said and things I could have done differently.  Making sure I didn’t miss out on lessons that could have been learned. And some how in reaching back I always touch on some sore points.   Places that, if I do visit them, ... Read More »

2014 – Here we go…

2014 – Here we go…

Over the proverbial hill… This is it – it’s the “big” one… the big 4-0 in October this year and I can tell that already I’m scrambling to get things done in the first 9 months in order to be able to say that I did it.  Typical me.  But there’s so much stigma about ... Read More »

Longing

I gotta start doing this more… I say it all the time. Just logging in any thoughts. Evidencing that I haven’t given up. That’s all for tonight. More discussions of higher consciousness and teachings of prophets another time. I am still here. Still breathing. Still trying to make Sense of it all. * Read More »

Nell Carter

Nell Carter

When I was young… wanna say like… 5 or 6 years old – my mom worked two jobs.  We’ve been down this road – I’ve recounted this numerous times.  Or… maybe I haven’t.  How her leaving for the second job would send me into a frenzy looking for anything I could find that might convince ... Read More »

10/11/13

5 years later and I still miss you. It is NOT easier. It hurts as much – I’ve just gotten better at burying it. I miss the home of your embrace and kissing your forehead. I think about you all the time and hear your thoughts in my head. I fear this won’t ever get ... Read More »

Conflicted

I struggle with staying true to what I’ve always thought and said about things, people and situations. Death is a great equalizer… I got news today that one of the original charter members of my undergraduate chapter passed away last night.   It’s absolutely no mystery that she and I were not on the best ... Read More »

Daughters of Two Worlds

Daughters of Two Worlds

Thought’s Daughter meets Daughter of the Sun http://instagram.com/daughterofthesun I stumbled upon this woman’s instagram documentation of her life and I have to say I’m in absolute awe.   Despite the EXTREME city girl that I am and how thoroughly spoiled I am by the comforts of “civilization”… there is a part of me that DESPERATELY ... Read More »

Everything Looks Good

Everything Looks Good

Today was step one in getting ready to expand my family.  I’d been delaying it for a bit at first of my own volition because of the fear of all the bad news I’d get and then with my bout of mastitis – which I still don’t believe I’ve blogged about – I just knew ... Read More »

Pick One.

Pick One.

At the recommendation of a friend who told me that they were ill equipped to answer my life questions anymore, I sought out a therapist this week.   I’d seen one before.  They wanted to dope me up. And I feel the same way about psychological meds as I do with pain meds.  They aren’t ... Read More »

Cliché / Bully

Cliché / Bully

“Who wants that perfect love story anyway?” -Beyoncé on Jay-Z’s Part II I have gotten caught up on the Magna Carta album hard body. I love the beats and music. And the lyrics. I am so attracted to understanding the thoughts of folks who seemingly have it all. I think I try to understand what ... Read More »