So I’m having a colonoscopy tomorrow so today to push the all fruit and veggie fast I’ve been doing through the damned envelope, I’ve had an all liquid diet all day. I did really well I think. Had countless glasses of water and for lunch I had the broth from some wonton soup. Now I’m on this bowel prep and I’ve never felt so EMPTY. All I can think about is how hungry I am.
The interesting / insightful thing to all of this is that the KINDS of food I’m thinking about eating aren’t the ones that I would normally sit and have for my meals. I didn’t eat HORRIBLY… I stopped being as active ore eating as regularly. I admit the last 4 months after the baby, I’ve gotten in chummy with the fast foods. But aside from that, I try to pick healthy stuff. Lean things. But those aren’t the things I’m craving now in the fast. Now? I want all the fatty amazingness that probably got me to the size I am. It’s really just got me thinking about what I eat… how I eat… when I eat it and if I really want to keep going down that path.
I cheated a little yesterday, admittedly. I had some wilted spinach and a baked potato with butter. I know… I rationalized that I was going to do the bowel prep today and it would clean me out anyways but… i gotta tell you… that little bit of something carried me right through today when I was drinking nothing but water.
Okay… on to day 6 and the colonoscopy *shudder*