Please, love me. Please, want me.
It doesn’t make sense to beg for these things. If someone doesn’t want to… If they aren’t naturally inclined to…. or inspired to… what’s the sense of begging for it… bribing them… cajoling or convincing? That’s just more proof in the pudding that they don’t want it THAT bad. Friends, lovers, jobs, whatever. It. Is. Hard. Especially when you never learned to want yourself enough.
It’s hard to realize that you’ll rot on the vine. And there’s nothing you can do about it’s. Despite ALL that you’re trying to do about it. That’s a tough place to be…