I spent all day dreaming of the past; wandering through sections of my mind that had been closed for renovations. I checked in on the process. And, as with all contractors, progress is slow but steady. Of course, all that is required is the right amount of will and all things should go as scheduled. If … Read More
It’s tough realizing that the story is not all about you. I think we all individually imagine that the world revolves around them and what they do. It was easier to convince myself of that when I was younger. I was the star of my very own personal movie and that everyone had thoughts of … Read More
Sometimes it is pretty tough to pan back from a situation and see all aspects objectively. It’s much harder to do when you have to do it in a split second… and when it’s a topic or situation that you are enveloped in; a situation where you quietly placed a self-investment in the ring to … Read More
I’m suffering from the lack of desire to really sleep. I lay down and don’t feel like I’m going to get much rest. I wake up achy and angry. I hate that I sleep worse since I quit smoking. *sigh* I dream less. And I wake up like a zombie. It’s 2:24 and I haven’t … Read More
So today, I had my first real, bonafide case of cold feet. Going over contract talks with our acting attorney I started to realize the finality of things. And how with marriage, there is no turning back without SERIOUS repercussion. She was explaining to me the clauses in the contract with the reception hall and … Read More
We do take a lot of things for granted in life. Things that other people would kill to have… we have at our disposal and don’t have much regard for. Tonight, my baby called me and told me that an associate of his committed suicide last night. He was 82. How do you get to … Read More
Ever see something from really far away and it was so beautiful and intriguing and demanding of your attention that it drew you closer and closer so you could get a better look at it? So you could understand the beauty of it a little more intimately. But… you get right up on it… and … Read More
I was having a conversation with my brother the other day about the make up of the soul and what it does… how it serves a function for us all. i wonder a lot if it’s predetermined. i have a strong sense of belief in reincarnation. i do think that we’ve been here (not necessarily here … Read More
Describes the feeling in the office right now. It’s the night before Christmas Eve and mostly everyone has made their way home already. I’m still here dragging my feet to complete MB’s clips… because, again, I don’t feel like rushing home to nothing. Just another computer to stare at and a void. I thought I … Read More
My mind, in an attempt to deal with the various things going on in my life, has created layers of reality for me to live in. Some things are in layers closer to the perceived reality of the world. Others are in this peripheral layer that exists more in my mind than in the world. … Read More