Back to the Middle
“Don’t make no mind about falling down
‘Cause it’s when you’re in that valley
You can see both sides more clearly”
I’ve emotionally fallen down this week. I’m allowing outside forces to determine my mood and my outlook. I’m willingly giving in to and cringing away from things that are scaring me. Nothing is going right. Nothing ever will. And I’m doomed.
The Libra in me has, with precision and measured swiftness, shoved my otherwise optimistic pendulum clear through to the other side. It’s so hard for me to have a mid ground. I’ve always attributed it to the Scales I carry. I can balance out for others… but for me… life is extremes. I’m either extremely happy. Intensely spiritual. Gloriously sexual. Monetarily well off. Loving all weather patterns. Nothing could be wrong. Or… the world is coming to an end. No one likes me. God’s abandoned me. No money to be found. And every day, it rains.
I pray to make it back to the middle… even if it’s just in quick passing.