Ping Pong

Categories: what in the entire hayle

Well, I’m sitting here on the Monday after Easter, in my pjs and not motivated to go ANYWHERE… especially not work. I’m supposed to be in there now, but I really don’t even care anymore. I almost wish they would fire me so I could collect severance and unemployment, etc etc etc. I need a … Read More


Categories: bad day, esteem, figuring it out

I aimlessly spend my days and nights searching for attention. I just want someone to notice me…. To the point where if the little cat on my screen for my Office 2000 meows at me… I get happy. She smiles at me… and I feel like someone’s paying attention. I don’t need 24 hour watch… … Read More

Purgatory Cold

Categories: bad day, numb, why am i doing this again?

It’s gotten to the point where the memories don’t even make me so much as smile anymore. Memories of fond things I did with Sug and Max… sweet memories of loves past… barely even memories of my childhood running hot and cold. I look upon all of them with my minds eye and stare at … Read More

Homebound from Texas, Pt I

Categories: bad day, traveling, why am i doing this again?

It is now 1:52 PM and I’m stuck in this airport. I really want to go home. I can’t stand this. I feel really sick from last night’s festivities and my body is wreaking havoc on me. I just spoke with Jean and Shawn and they are on their own agendas (as if I should … Read More

Texas Shenanigans, Pt IIIa

Categories: shenanigans, sorority stuffs, traveling

I just got back from the much anticipated Alpha party and much to my dismay it was wack. I really didn’t have a good time. All they did was stroll… just like every party. There were a lot of deltas at this party and they were rude and rowdy. I really grew a dislike for … Read More

Texas Shenanigans, Pt III

Categories: shenanigans, sorority stuffs, traveling

Here I am… I spent the whole day in my room. With the exception of when I went to breakfast with the girls this morning. They took me to IHOP. I had taken them to dinner at Tony Roma’s yesterday. I woke up this morning feeling really sick… once again, I drank too much last … Read More

Texas Shenanigans – Pt II

Categories: shenanigans, sorority stuffs, traveling

Okay… I gotta call down to NY and start hustling. I am running out of money and it’s starting to get a little hectic. I’m nervous because I might have to ask Jean. Which is frightening. I’m back… It is now 10:01 Dallas time and I’m waiting to find out what is going on tonight. … Read More

Texas Shenanigans

Categories: shenanigans, sorority stuffs, traveling

It took me two days to start writing again because I really haven’t had a minute for myself. I am here in my hotel room (which is pretty okay) and I’m on a “break”. And I put break in parentheses because this whole weekend is a break to me. As far as Boule is concerned, … Read More

Texas Bound

Categories: really? nothing, sorority stuffs, traveling

Well, I’m on this plane on my way to Texas… the take off was a little shaky and had nervous for a second. But I guess since we reached 10,000 feet, I’ll be okay till we have to start touching down. I’m hoping this guy doesn’t try any of that hotshot shit that the pilot … Read More