Fight Alone

Posted by iam on Feb 12, 2010 in bad day, whatinthehayle?, why am i doing this again? | 1 comment

They’re all going to frown at you… they’re all going to frown at you…
Brows furrowed and arms crossed.
Fuming at you for wrongs not personally done to them
But it’s their job.

I’m standing very alone in a situation that calls for backup. But I don’t have much anymore these days. Just my own heart and mind telling me I can stand strong and be strong. And may be that’s all I need. I need to assert myself against a claim formerly made by Cary that I was not the stuff of marriage material. I AM… I can be. I’m always ascending. And I can prove it. Now if others besides me could just believe it for a moment. I could change the world.

I hope who I speak to on Monday has a heart. And if not … I am ready to appeal to the bottom lines.

Please God. Be on my side for this.

Cary

Okay I confess, I am a fan. Just as I check in with you by phone from time…. to….time I check-in to thoughts daughter, particularly now that I can no longer remember the phone number by heart. Want to know how your doing without being intrusive and I hope im not doing so now. I honestly hope there is another Cary you know, who was also silly enough to let you get away because I know I’ve never said you were not Marriage material. Although immature at times, I’ve never thought of you as anything other than marriage material, from day 1 until a last good bye, throught to today. I know Earl knows he is one the most fortunate men on the planet, and since he is not the only smart man on the planet, had he not married you, you would still be married by now to another fortunate Man. I hold you in much higher regard than to say or think your not marriage material, I truely believe you are more marriage material than anyone I have ever dated or have known. I was obviosly not marriage material then, timing is everything even bad timing.