The Engagement Photos

The Engagement Photos

I guess in my excitement to get them up there, I forgot to post over here that my Engagment Photos from the shoot at Rockerfeller Center are here now! They look really beautiful and I’m expecting more tonight from RM.

I have it all set up for voting so random folks perusing the site can give their 10 cents into what picture they think we should use. My baby likes Pose 11 in black and white… I like pose 12. But there are more coming so I hope that brings widened choices. Although I wouldn’t be altogether sad to be “stuck” with 12. It’s beautiful. Almost exactly what I wanted.

Today is slow at work. I narrowed down the contents of my inbox from 2300 to 524. *sigh* I’m sad that’s considered an accomplishment. But it’s been quiet this week. Most folks are on vacation and not in the office (not just here but overall). Lots of folks aren’t signed on to IM so I’m like in this desert wasteland of my own thoughts this week. Good place to be. The silence has allowed me to sort through the mire of what was troubling me for the last few months and came to some definitive decisions that I’m sure will make me have a brighter year coming up. I’m excited about that.

More later.

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Boredom

Boredom

…sets in….

I guess I didn’t really need a BlogThing to tell me that… *shrugs*

That either *teehee*

Your Element Is Fire

Your passion and emotion are as obvious as the brightest flame. You make sparks fly, and your passion always has the potential to burst out. You are exciting and creative – and completely unpredictable. You sometimes exercise control, and sometimes you let yourself go. Friends describe you as sensitive, spirited, and compulsive. Bright and blazing with intensity, you seem mysterious and moody to many.

Hmmm… not so much…

Okay… no more quizzes

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Christmas… a day late

Christmas… a day late

So, I’ll dispense of the details as to why it was late. But the delivery of my custom arcade (provided by the good folks at SoulShot Studios) gift was delayed by a day and some. I was supposed to get it Christmas Eve, but unfortunately, it didn’t materialize till midnight last night (today…really). And there are still a couple of things that I need to do to it. But it works good for the most part. Enough for my baby to be completely enthralled with it. I don’t think he even reall knows where he is anymore…. LMAO! Which is MY Christmas gift. I waited to see that look on his face since October.

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He says he’s in awe with it. Earl is so reserved with me. I don’t know if he’s like that all the time, but he’s so quiet and not super animated. I’ve seen him be. And I guess I was expecting this big reaction from him. But the eaction he’s given… I know he loves it… and he’s excited about it. I think I made the right choice

Merry Christmas sweetie

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Joyeux Noel

Joyeux Noel

Merry Christmas to all! I’m up late waiting for dad to come home from Midnight mass (it’s 3:00 AM). And I just don’t feel to comfortable sleeping till I know he’s safe. I’m suffering from a deathlike headcold with a cough that threatens to dislodge my lungs every time. But for the most part, this Christmas is turning out like last Christmas. It’s quiet. No tree. Gifts have been bought, but they were bought today, and I don’t see the sense in wrapping them… to stick them on the living room table so that folks will unwrap, give a sheepish smile… “ohhhh…. how nice” and then throw it on their stock pile of stuff to collect dust. Then I have to clean up all the wrappings and throw them away anyways. I’m just going from room to room today and handing unwrapped gifts like… “Here. I know you needed one.” Less and less festive every year. My brother attributes it to there being no kids for us to celebrate for. But we were festive UP TO 2002. Maybe it’s cause Grandma isn’t around. But what can you do. Promise to do better next year… I did that last year.

I guess we’ll have to see. I’m excited about what I got for my baby. I can’t wait for him to see it!! I wish I was that excited about christmas for everyone else. I guess the prospect of celebrating a family Christmas with my sweetie one day in our own house is keeping that spark of Christmas cheer alive in me… somewhere.

Quiet & Empty

Quiet & Empty

Describes the feeling in the office right now. It’s the night before Christmas Eve and mostly everyone has made their way home already. I’m still here draggin my feet to complete MB’s clips… because, again, I don’t feel like rushing home to nothing. Just another computer to stare at and a void. I thought I was gonna catch John Legend tonight with Sug (who is back in town YAAAY!!) and Max… but between my bad cold and the weather, Sug’s call to reneg didn’t upset me one bit. But now has left me with an open night of nothingness that I’m attempting to avoid. It’s understandable. Everyone is with their loved ones today, tomorrow, Saturday, Sunday. As it should be. I will be too… I guess just not as soon as I’d like.

I called my baby a few minutes ago to see if he felt like coming to get me from work. AP told me that I shouldn’t hesitate in asking him to do stuff like that. “Welcome to the Club” he said. But I don’t want my baby to be part of THAT club: The club that feels like they’re trapped and HAVE to do the things that wifey says…. OR ELSE. I want it to be open and free. He knows I’m sick… He knows I have to work late. If he deems it necessary, he’d come get me. I called and told him that I was going to call and ask him if he’d come get me. He replied that he just got home off the train because he didn’t drive in…………….

Yep. That was my response. No offer to come through anyways. I guess I should have expected as much. I feel like if I have to come out and say “Babe… can you come get me anyways,” that the action will be under quiet protest… and not offered as a gesture of kindness. So I don’t push the issue. I’ll just go home and suck it up. I do wish he would have offered though. He asked me to call when I’m leaving. I felt like saying, “Why?” But that would have been rude. I’ll call.

I foresee the next few days being painfully quiet for me. Between playing Santa to a non-captive audience and being away from the work place, there will be a lot of scrambling to fill the space with stuff – things to do, places to go, people to see… something. I’m not altogether sad about it. Just reflective and quiet.

I guess I’ll pony up and go home. Maybe more later… if anything interesting happens.

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