Perimeter

Every now and again,

I need to verify if i’m still alive

and the parts still work independantly of this

perpetual auto pilot mode that

I’ve placed myself in.

Most effective barometer of

all sensation is pain

and easiest to access…

so even when nothing is wrong

the desire to experiment is ever present

I wonder if this will hurt like it did in the past.

If i isolate my esteem in this deprivation tank

how long might it take me to

hallucinate about what i think is happening

and will the process of reconvincing myself to “reality”

ultimately drive me insane

waking from this nightmare

strapped into restraints and

straddling the wall of reason

laying prone to fate

with circumstance prepping in line.

But i chose to test my threshold

when nothing else was wrong